The moment I first knew Muama, the angel of mine =)

Frustrated. Heart-broken. Hopeless.

                         Those three pathetic feelings that I felt at the time. I was facebook-ing on (December 9th, 2009) that evening. Checking my profile and stalking on others profiles as usual. And the weirdest thing about that evening was I didn't go offline chat, differ from my other days. That day, I go online. Chatting with a FEW boring strangers. Layan pun (honestly) semadi ndak jak layan sidak. Suddenly, this guy appears on my chatbox. Shahriman Satisfactory. 'Hey..' was then appeared on my chatbox. Belom reply dolok tok. Kmk check profile Shahriman Satisfactory tok tek and viewed a few photos nya, cos he's adding me as his friends baruk jak a moment ago. And I was like, 'Hmm. Handsome'. Then I replied 'Hey' too. The conversation's begin. Honestly lah, ati dah bunga-bunga time chat ngan nya ya and ignore terus chat ngan strangers tek. I DON'T KNOW WHY. Dah chat ngan nya 30 minutes camya, PADUHAL, nya penah ngaco kmk dolok tapi kmk sik layan cause time nya ngaco kmk ya kmk gik maseh ngan ex kmk. Sik sangka betemu balit. Then, he asked for my number bila kmk padah kmk dah tuka number. Kmk  sik pake number lamak agik. So, I gave my recent number ngan nya with no doubt. SELALUNYA please lah kmk nak berik number kmk sekati ngan orang sebarang tapi tang nya mintak tek kmk terus berik. Seriously weirdo bizzare aihhh. So, bila dah dapat number kmk, nya terus lah miscall kmk tek. Again. Paduhal kmk maseh simpan number nya lam contact kmk. Nang kmk dikpun kejut bila nangga 'SHAHRIMAN calling' appear kat screen phone kmk. Then, start ariya kmk duak everyday contact, selalu on the phone. Honestly, dari hari 1st kenal nya gik kmk dah fall ngan nya, which is mega strange. I was heart-broken for about 6 months and now gila ngan this guy within ONE DAY?? And I whispered to myself, 'Hanim, what the heck happened to you? You're heart-broken, remember?? Apa orang laki tok dah polah ngan kau sampe kau gila ngan nya dalam masa sehari jak??'. And I was like, 'Yeah. What happened?'. It's simple. I'M IN LOVE. Finally.  =)

                             After a few days kenal ngan Shahriman @ Muama through phone, kmk duak finally jumpa face-to-face on December 13th, 2009. But bukan klua beduak la. We hanging out together along with his cousin, Ooi. My first impression about him was, 'nya tok kerek eh'. And it makes me thinking for awhile, 'Is he the right guy for me? If couple ngan nya, would he serious in a relationship?? Nya dapat polah kmk bahagia sik oo, if couple ngan nya??'. I started to worry. And afraid, of course. I've been hurted like hell before and for God's Sake, I rather be dead if I were asked to feel those pain once again. I've been crying a lot too these few years. It feels like I'm walking in the dark, all alone, without knowing what's infront of me. I lost. I don't know what to expect. Like shit I was damn afraid. Balit rumah lekak klua ngan nya ya, kmk masok bilit and terus nangis. I'm shaking cause I was too afraid, afraid mok dilukai for the 2nd times. I already fell into someone. But I don't know whether he's the right guy for me cause kmk fall ngan nya cepat gilak. I can't even helped myself. He's so irresistible bah. Kmk nang sik dapat mok tapok feeling kmk towards Muama. But then, I talked to myself, 'Hanim, chill bah! Enough with those tears eh. Keep on exploring who's Muama really is. Who knows he might be the One. Open your heart to someone new'. (I bet you guys thought that this girl is crazy cause she's been talking to herself a lot. But trust me. I'm just trying to please myself. That's it) And yes, I keep on exploring who's Muama really is. Trying to get to know him well. Klua ngan nya around duak tiga kali camya. The first REAL thing that I noticed about him was he was very honest about himself. Sampe kmk dikpun wondering why nya cerita semua pasal bad and good nya ngan kmk. But every single word that came out from his mouth, I swear to God, kmk cayak. Mena. Kmk tauk bah nya klaka benar. SERIOUSLY, his honesty has stole my heart. And I was like, 'I want this guy so badly!!!!!'.

                         See?? Kmk sik salah orang. It's worth it. The exploring is so paid-off as he proposed me to be his girl on December 19th, 2009. Gosh! Feels like I'm dreaming. To fall in love again?? The last time I fell in love with someone was back on 2007. It's 2 years ago! Hell it's a wonderful dream. The day he step-in into my life, he's just like the sun who shone and brighten up my life, day by day. He absolutely turns my tears into smile. And he finally found me, walking all alone in the dark, and hold my hands and showed me his 'I-will-walk-with-you' face and never let go till then. He is really what I've been looking for all this while. I'm so thankful and grateful to Allah S.W.T for sending Mohd Shahriman into my life. 

                           The red roses. Those red roses nok nya berik ngan kmk 2 days before Valentine's Day, make my heart over-melting. Goshhh! Sapa sik caer bila dapat bunga dari orang laki. Red roses gik ya. Nya orang first yang berik bunga ngan kmk. The sweetest thing ever. Sumpah. The other sweetest thing that he had done to me was we danced together with Sheila Majid's song is played on his laptop (sumpah time ya kmk dah caer lebo. Kmk nang dah blushing tahap infinity  eh, sampe kmk dah sik terdaya mok face-to-face ngan nya. All I could do is to lean my forehead on his chin), the breakfast that he made for us two (rupa telo nok nya goreng nang cute), nya cuci kreta kmk (nya mati-mati melarang kmk nolong nya. kmk disuroh nya dudok rah carporch, nya dikpun bepeloh-peloh nyuci kreta kita, tedah nya), and, he takes me out for a dinner with his entire family (and he introduces me as his girlfriend. Awwwwwww~)  OhmyGod, kmk angau!  :DDD

                         

                      Now, dah 4 bulan kmk duak gerek. Everything's just a piece of cake for us both. Cause we got each other. I loved him so much. Bagi kmk, Muama is so special. He is different from other guy I've met before and after. He made me feel what its like being loved by someone and appreciated by someone. And automatically kmk teringat ngan kata-kata ex kmk time nya dumped kmk dolok, 'Eboh carik kmk agik. Ktk akan dapat laki yang jaoh lebih bagus dari kmk klak bah', and YES! Mena kata kau. Aku dapat Muama, yang 100x jaoh lebih bagus dari kau. Sumpah aku suka kita duak break, Sjap. Cause I finally met someone special who pumped my heart fast, who made me going crazy at all the time, who made me feel real being in love, who taught me how to smile again, who I deserved to be with, and, most important is, I finally found someone who I can hold on every day and night. It's just extremely overwhelming to have Muama in my life.

                        Sayang, I love you with all my heart. With all my soul. Being with you is the best decision I made. You're my breath.